Emotionally Stress Day

This morning, everything was just fine like usual in my life..however at 9.30 am everything changes..the whole fiscal team was called to big boss discussion room with our "spinster" boss..she reported to the big boss how we are not cooperating enough with her and the problem with our chapter..after a long discussion, the big boss advise us and bla..bla..

he also mention that although we were expected to come on Friday, someone did not turn up on time. it was me.. it was friday..malaysia day..public holiday..there's a memo for us to come to work..i'm ok with it..just that i've informed the "spinster" boss and of course she couldn't accept it..she's the one report to the big boss..well i have a husband..a son.. a family to say..i have obligations towards them...i have to cook and do laundry.. house chores to do..i'm just coming late..not that i don't want to come at all..in fact i'm telling her earlier..

i'm leaving for DPA and for sure there's a lot to prepare not just physically..but my family..my son would always cry whenever i was leaving him for work..and what more for the entire 6 months course..did the "spinster" boss understand this? realize of a wife obligations and responsibility?... NO.. because she is a spinster.. (btw i learn this word yesterday from the andartu film on TV3 ..hehehe)..

The thing is i feel dissapointed with myself for not being able to defend myself..i didn't speak on my defend..i let them talk as if i was not there..it's really heartbreaking..because deep down inside i knew what exactly happen but i couldn't tell the big boss..WHY?? because i don't want things to get more intense..cause i know when i'm angry or rage is covering me..i will be hurting people and worse case will happen..i don't want that to happen..so i keep my mouth shut..

it is a emotional stress for me today..and i told the spinster boss's PA..that i refuse to see her the whole day..i fear things will get worse..i'm tired of this emotional stress that i faced for the past 3 years..work is fine with me..it's just the spinster..

p/s:will she (spinster boss) ever understand a family woman??...(sigh....)